wow...so i havent been over to the stepdads in a long time to update now that im done babysitting. except for tonite, he asked me to watch Lauren so its all good.......funny thing is that i came home rite as he was leaving to go to work. lol! i think he was pissed but it was worth it.

so school is--well--school. gay as usual...only more this year. i got split up with everybody! no joke. it sucks! i mean, yeah ive got classes with sum tyte people, but none of my close-ass friends. Kenny, me, & Corey all got split up in english class! i cant believe they put u 2 together, and didnt put me in there. im the reason u guys passed! haha! and u guys are the reason why i didnt go insane through that class last year.....we had some good times with Goldax. lol

so turns out my english teacher is my ex-boyfriends cousin.

>>weird. i cant even look at her as my teacher...its hard to explain.

so enough about school. ::THIS WEEKEND::

so friday nite ((our first weekend after school started)) we had this big party over at Richard's house...which is funny cuz it was only supposed to be a few of us, but people just kept showing up left&right. it was tyte tho. the next morning me, Monica, Richard, Dustin, Jared, Mercedes, & Jena all went to eat at village inn...mmm mmm.....then i headed home and got ready for my job interview at B Dubbz...i got that shit in the bag! lol. watch out for me there pretty soon. haha

::TONITE::

went to the carnival, saw tons of people...including Darren Radcliff...the boy ive known my whole life and havent seen in about 5 years! it was so awesome getting to see him and talk to him. then everybody ((cant even name off who all was there)) met at TacoBell. from there we went back to Richard's cuz his parents are still outta town and had an....interesting nite. it started out kick-ass, and ended up akward and me leaving at 4 something in the morning to make it back here to babysit. lol. i had to take Monica's car, so now im gonna try to stay up all nite so i can be up when i need to take it back to her so she can make it up to work. its gonna be a looonnggg nite...let me tell you. haha

>>so on the drive home i had a good talk with David. i see absolutely nothing wrong with him...so im gonna keep on talking to him for now. we talked about some pretty serious stuff. it was nice getting to finally know him after all this time.

k well im gonna go find something to do to keep me occupied for the next almost 4 hours till the celica goes back to Monica. this should be fun! haha!

<3 amber

//Edit

holy shit.

thats all i can say. i thought i finally found a guy that i could talk to, be friends with, hangout, maybe even like. and then i found out how he really honestly is. and i dont want any part of that.

>>thank you Kristin & Chelsea for making sure i knew everything i needed to know...

<3 amber

everytime i see

Ashlee Simpson&Ryan Cabrera

i think of you and me, and how it used to be.

::LAST NITE::

so all i did last nite was just stay home. it's gonna be my only nite of relaxation before school starts

>>let me just say that im planning on this being a long weekend & i couldnt be happier!

at mostly different times at my house last nite, i hungout with Megan, Katy, Monica, Jena, Kenny, Peter & i saw Corey T for a whole 2 seconds when he drove by to get his shirt.

usually when i sit at home i constantly complain about needing to go out and do something...but last nite was different. i felt like i needed time to just wind down from everything ive found out lately...

::TONITE::

beaver lake. no joke, this time. lol!

David M called last nite, and clarified that even if its raining again we are going out on that damn boat! no matter what. haha

plan on me calling you and asking you to come cuz its gonna be tyte! >>not sure if its gonna be an "all-nighter" but chances are, other stuff is gonna be going on closer to Bellevue tonite just in case, duh!

alryte EVERYBODY...

this is the last weekend before school starts. enjoy it to the fullest. you dont want to regret these last couple days...remember that.

<3 amber

so beaver lake didn't end up happening since it was raining, but we all still had a kickass nite!

the nite started out at my house. sitting there waiting to finish our plans was, me, Margo, Megan, Jena, Linda, Sara, Corey D, & Corey T.

we were planning on trying to hangout with David ((at least i was..lol)) but they couldnt find a place for all of us to go without it being too many people.

>>"is there anyway you can lower that number....?"-david

    "heck no! we come as a package deal! hahaha!"-me

so instead of hanging out with him, Dustin said that all of us could go over to his house to party. before we went over there tho, all of us went over to Austin's & Kenny's...even tho some of us werent really wanted--i dont care if u say it was misunderstood or not.

i dont know if its the fact that you dont trust me or if you dont trust yourself...let me clear something up rite now. it was in the past..dont assume i still have anything there. dont hold that against me--it wasnt just my fault.

but im trying this new thing Mandy taught me....im over it!

>>and now its done.

from K&A we all headed to Dustin's. i havent laughed that hard in a long time!

..and i really needed it last nite...

thank you for everyone that tried cheering me up last nite-at my house & at Dustin's.

Margo- i wasnt mad at you last nite. u just scared me to death & i had no idea what to do...cuz there wasnt anything i could do. i love you and im always here...i kno u kno that.

Corey T-it was really good talking to you last nite. thanks for trying to cheer me up...it was like the old times...

ok so i kno i just made the nite look like really down, but thats only cuz that was how i felt deep down inside all nite long. and it wont go away for a long time.

Just help me to help her.

<3 amber

Q: so how do u kno when ur summer's almost over?

A: when u try to party & get them all in before the school year starts...just so u dont regret "the week before school started."

alryte, so saturday nite was my first time ever on a motorcycle! it was so awesome! Johnny rode his new bike over looking for Ashley, and told me to come outside so i could go for a ride.

he looked so cute. lol! he had on his bandana and everything...awww, Johnny... haha! the funniest part was rite when we pulled away from my house, and he goes, "Are you alryte?" and i said yea. and he fucking drove off soooo fast..it was scary, but so much fun!

probably 5 min later we got back to my house, i climbed off the bike, took off the helmet, and shook my hair around and his face just kinda dropped. HAHA! i was like, "you liked that didnt you?" and i just started laughing.

>>time for me to get a motorcycle. haha, yea rite!

::LAST NITE::

went to a party at D.J.'s house...fun nite! i went there with Megan & Monica.

so i walk in this house by myself, look around at everyone in there((they were all from papio)), and i didnt kno one person. i looked at each of them and started laughing! and just go, "wow...i dont know any of you!" lol, it was so funny!

but then i saw Kristin E., & Kristen G. and was like, "ahh! i kno u guys!" lol...i musta looked so ditzy.

later on Corey D came over with Jena, Pamela, Syrena, Linda, & Chris , but all of them left later on except for Corey. me and Corey drove to his house real quick so he could get some overnite stuff and we were jamming to Shania Twain the whole way! no joke. lol

>>so i talked to Corey ((T.)) last nite. havent been doing much of that this summer.... were gonna have a kickass junior year together tho. back off bitches, Corey Taylor is my best friend. --sometimes i get territorial with my little buddy...haha!

it was an awesome nite, even tho i did something kinda stupid..or said something kind of stupid...but oh well. im over it!

<3 amber

..beaver lake tonite w/Dave M.  ...call me!